so, i’ve been following “unfuck your habitat” for a while now, attempting to incorporate the hints, tips, and no-nonsense encouragement into my life.
i have two challenges - firstly, i deal with chronic illness, and therefore lots of pain, fatigue, and mental fog. secondly, i have major mental/emotional resistance to cleaning. i am usually very black and white about everything in life. i have ocd, so if i can get past the anxiety i feel when cleaning, then i want it to be perfect in an unhealthy way. my habitat is either spotless or a massive cyclone-like mess.
i think i am making some progress. finding balance has always been a huge challenge in my life. i’ve always tended to marathon clean, but instead i’ve lately been trying to do ufyh’s 20/10’s (only i’ve modified them for my energy levels to be more like 15/15 or sometimes even 10/15).
the kitchen is now half-clean (but completely functional). i’ve been able to maintain it in this half-of-how-i-really-want-it state for about 3 weeks now, while also cleaning any new daily messes as they occur (kind of a big deal for me).
i realized that my kitchen habit is changing, and i feel okay about it. not so anxious about it. less resistant. and i am starting to feel comfortable with it’s mostly clean-looking state. (sometimes when things are too clean i get anxious. it pisses me off, but that’s the truth. but then, i am always anxious about the messiness, so since i’m anxious either way, i’d rather be clean, tidy and organized.)
so, thanks ufyh. mine is another life you are helping to change. :)